A friend suggested that to improve my mood I could actually watch TV rather than staring at it, and I soon found that Grey’s was an excellent place to start. I caught up on half dozing and breastfeeding by sitting on the sofa. I was stuck on the sofa because my body leaked a lot, so I was always afraid of standing up and wetting myself, and also my baby was an excessively and exceptionally poor sleeper. And also episodic US network television drama. Who screamed and grew and shouted and refused to sleep with a glee as brilliant as the busy sun. And nothing epitomised this more than my son. I bundled on in a haze of PND and PTSD, punctuated only with madly loving my son, and a restlessness about the world because I felt like everything needed to move on, was moving on, but I was still stuck, standing in the labour ward not quite sure what the hell had happened to me.īut even in the midst of trauma, even when the world as you perceive it, the trajectory of your life, is standing still, there is movement all around you. She is also, though she doesn’t know it, entirely connected to my first maternity leave, in a way which will bond us together forever, and one of the reasons I wrote this book.īack in 2007, where I slowly realised what the juddering aftershocks of birth would actually look like, I lost myself too. Shonda is a showrunner responsible for creating TV including Grey’s Anatomy, Private Practice, How To Get Away With Murder, Scandal.

A mega-God, a master of words and someone who has found and lost her spark in her career. She is a Titan, as anyone who has seen her amazing TED talk will attest.

Shonda rhimes memoir